Spiritual Authority

I have never thought of authority as a blessing before. I am beginning to see that understanding authority and how to correctly respond to it is understanding God's ways. His authority and His love are intertwined. He has been most gracious to me as the learning process to love has also been being applied to my learning of authority without the consciousness of my soul. When the Spirit began to nudge me into the direction of learning of authority I still wanted to draw back . However the healing of love that has been going on in my soul , gave me courage to resist my flesh and not withdraw as it was wanting to do.
I have decided to follow Jesus has everything to do with believing in His authority. The disciples were amazed that Jesus had authority over the wind and the waves. However, knowing that truth surely gave them courage to leave all and follow Him.
It was not that now they had authority but that they now had the One who had all authority on their side. Or was it that they had decided to be on His side ? Regardless of who chose who, the point is the authority that was given to them was the authority of Jesus. The two came in one package. His love for them , His authority over them. Unto the world they went , giving His love to the world, walking in His authority over everything that He had given them authority over.
About my Hiding From Love by Dr. John Townsend book. I have found that all along I have known of the authority of the LORD Jesus Christ but had been afraid to talk to Him about certain things. Afraid because of my wounded authority muscle convincing me that He would not want to hear about such things as I wanted/or thought I didn't want , to talk to Him about.
Now as He is healing my authority muscle I realize I can now approach Him with subjects I thought He would rather I not discuss with Him. And His response to my conversations has revealed to me that He is willing to teach me His ways. He is willing to go with me . He is my Shepherd. He is the lover of my soul. He is everything I thought He was , now because I dare to go through the veil He rent for me , I realize I do not have to know about Him. He is willing to let me know Him.